Fears

I am scared, the way I get "kilig" just by being around him, when he looks at me, or holds my hand or stands next to me. It's all a part of the show and exactly why I want to stop feeling so infatuated. I am scared that I am encouraging myself to feel this way although it will soon come to end. We'd all take a final bow, the curtains will close and we'll have to act the way we were. I am scared he knows already. I am scared that I may look like a fool. I am scared that I may just be kidding myself. I am scared of the uncertainty itself.