Moving Out..Moving In

"Bulilit, bulilit..sanay sa masikip. Kung kumilos ang liit-liit."

This is what comes to mind whenever I think of our soon-to-be new home...for the next six months or so (I don't think I can stand it for long,..but I have be a optimist).

Yes, we're moving out of my parents' house and into our new home. The new abode is near Commonwealth. So far from Retiro. So far from work. And so near (as in walking distance) from the in-laws.

The problem is not the in-laws. I don't have parents-in-law, but I have a bunch of sisters- and cousins-in-law and a whole lot of little kins-in-law. They are all okay and relatively harmless and sooo not comparable to some of my father's relatives.

The problem is the newness of it all. Having to rely on only Jam and myself for our family's well-being. Jam isn't exactly the role model for all fathers/husband. And I'm not exactly the perfect wife material. We're not earning THAT well (unlike what some people may think). I'm so used to relying on dear mommy and the househelp...the meals get cooked, the laundry gets washed and ironed, the house gets cleaned...all without my help. My only contribution is paying bills. Hehehe.

I don't have to watch what I wear or say. I don't have to care what time I wake up (though I really wake up early everyday) or go to sleep. I splurge on some grocery items (like tons of Tipco juices and junk food) because I can still afford it.

But in a week's time, my world may come to a complete turn-around (no, not naman end). I'd have to be more conscious of our spending habits. I've to learn how to manage the household (though Jam could pretty much manage it as well - he's more bossy and masungit). I've to learn how to live with Jam's two sisters (who'll help watching over Jerard) and nephew. I've to wake up earlier than usual to get to work on time. I've to learn to live without all my shoes, and my books and all my little whatchamacallits. The house is so small I can watch TV from the other end of the room.

I am scared. Frightened. Worried. The earth is shaking underneath my feet and I've nothing to hold on to, except the knowledge that this is what most couples go through.