Problematic

On hold for now
Fate has dealt us a bad hand.
I want to try to make it work, but obviously, he needs to fix his life first.
He needs to clean up his act.

And I need to know what it is I am afraid of.
We all have our demons to face, I told him that, before he spilled his guts out to me.
And this is my demon, my personal battle.
I can't forever be waiting for a chance to escape...

Relationships shouldn't be a prison, but a haven.
But everyday, I feel so chained instead of cherished.
And everyday I keep asking if this is what I want,
And what he needs.

So now, it's back to square 1, minus a thousand steps.
Regrets are too late, but I keep wishing this whole drama never happened at all.